In the spirit of Easter this year I decided to freeze my eggs. Well, let’s be honest. I didn’t decide anything. Spirit decided for me and I listened. (As always please feel free to replace Spirit for any concept that works for you – God, Buddha, The Universe, My Heart, Marvin Gaye, etc.)
In January, my dear friend, who is on a complicated road to motherhood, mentioned to me that I should consider freezing eggs. She, now in her mid-forties, wishes she could turn back the clock and make the decision to freeze eggs earlier in her life since it was no longer an option for her. (Thankfully this beautiful world of ours has presented her with other choices to be the amazing mother she is called to be!)
For those of you who may be unfamiliar with the process there is an extraction of eggs at an earlier time in a woman’s life for a time when eggs may not be as healthy or even produced, giving the option to have a baby later in life. Once the eggs are extracted there is a choice of carrying the baby on your own or through a surrogate. (Forgive the simplicity of my explanation or my lack of medical expertise.)
I am simply touched at the generosity of my girlfriend’s heart. While going through such tough times of her own she had the strength of heart to still help me on my journey. I have so much gratitude for her because she was the first one to plant the seed, or in this case, the egg idea. I listened to her advice and took it to heart. My heart is where it stayed for a couple months. (My dear friend, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.)
It was a Monday afternoon in March and I went to my gynecologist to explore some light bleeding I had in between my cycles. During the visit my doctor did an ultrasound to see if anything was going on. I sat there and watched the picture of my body, the body that could carry a baby, in fascination. My first thought was sheer bewilderment of the technology we have in this world. This increased my respect and gratitude for all my former CareFusion / BD colleagues who spend every day bringing medical technology to us with the highest quality. Along the same lines let’s talk about the technology for egg preservation. Unbelievable!!!
My second thought watching the ultrasound was what an amazing experience this must be for new parents seeing their baby for the first time. This is the first time I really remember embracing that feeling of potentially being a parent. I had considered being a mother many times before, especially when I get time with my niece and nephew. The considerations of motherhood were always at a cerebral level though. I was now feeling it at a heart level. (On a side note, the ultrasound showed that I am going to be just fine with a little pipe cleaning. I believe I was really only there for this beautiful heartfelt insight of motherhood.)
As “luck” would have it, the very next day I was at dinner with one of my dearest friends. She shared with me that she was going to start the process of freezing eggs. Hmm, of course you are! Thanks Spirit! Just in case I missed the previous signs you so brilliantly planned for this to come up with my girlfriend. Any doubts or fears I may have had seemed to melt away knowing that my dear friend was going through the process too. An added bonus is that now my little eggsicles are going to have some freezer buddies!
So here I am. My friend suggesting I freeze eggs in January. An ultrasound to give me a sneak peak of what it may feel like to see a baby for the first time in March. A dinner with my girlfriend telling me she is freezing eggs the night after the ultrasound. To make it even easier for me both girlfriends recommended the same fertility clinic. Time to call!
Just after the initial meeting with the clinic I shared my story with another dear friend, who had saved sperm years earlier due to a battle in which he kicked testicular cancer’s a$$, said to me “Funny, I was just thinking about you and saving eggs.” Coincidence? I think not.
There are no coincidences in life. When one is aligned with their heart and open to what the universe has to offer, they will see and experience everything they need to move forward in this beautiful journey called life and expand more fully into the love that they already are. The signs are everywhere whether it is in the words of a song, a billboard that you drive by, a book you have read a million times and never quite seen a certain passage until the very day you needed to read it, or my personal favorite, messages that come through my niece and nephew.
Could I be making meaning out of nothing? Perhaps. But I ask you, what is the worst thing that could happen if that is true? That I have a way to help me hear what is already in my heart?
In my case, I didn’t even consciously know it was time to answer the question of egg preservation and yet the universe kept pointing me where I needed to go. I surrendered. I trusted. I listened. I listened to the world. I listened to my heart. Perhaps the world and my heart are one in the same!
What is it you are looking to answer in your life today? Are you open to trusting the universe to provide you the answers you are looking for when the time is right? Try it right now. Ask the world for an answer. Be patient. Be open. Receive. Repeat.
P.S. Not all my blog posts will be about the egg preservation process. It just happens to be a big part of my life right now and a lot of lessons for me that I can share to inspire even just one beautiful soul!